the backlog, post writers block and fragments...or, ouch my brain just purged

*Spring/Summer*


1.
to unsex time

like the slow eruption of lovers
knitted in space
                and tangledlimbs
     
     languid

in the morning sun.
with diamonds for blankets
in the grass.

(with the memory of)

the other night.
laying in bed, below the crook of your arm.
looking up.
   in that moment,
    between awake and asleep
      i cast practical mysticism aside.
    believing completely i've looked upon you
   in the moonlight
since learning to see.

2.
the river that loses its name when it joins the sea-
the kiss that is the doorway resting  upon the threshold of truth;
opening to loves parlor and uncomfortable chairs.

3.
soil in my eyes
watering transplants with tears.

thinning seedlings is playing god.

4.
jostle jostle with a spoon
the sun on our backs and the moon on our faces.
i refuse to hold your hand as we sew
the seeds
of
forget-
me-
nots
amidst the fierce flames of spring.

when we lept like beasts
possessing the powers of a seas tempest
wearing a disguise of prettiness in the afternoon.

*seasons change before the calender exposes a new month*

4.
never
is how long i have not loved you.

thank you
is the preserves sealed, unspoken upon the shelf.

5.
the art of physical cartography

to the fingers learning the topography of a body
each breath
is a terrain altering
a f t e r s h o c k.

this is a moment
(tAkE hEeD)

this moment has edges.
unlike the sound of a pause
between
i love
and
you
falling into the space of an exhaling cushion
and the impossible dream;
daring to sleep among the waves.

6.
*obliquely*

dearest-
  in the misty night, as the river rises i sit within a toes length of the tide.
  my lips-the sweet of a fig.
  tongue-the rancour of fernet.

  (bitter)sweet life
  and her toying juxtaposition
  that holds hands with self imposed examinations
  as autumn falls upon the horizon.
  

i dare to accept

a truth. a muffled whimper.
a stifled moan in the musk of the cobweb being more tremendous
than a legion of wolves running through the fall forest.
and the presence of your embrace is enough to stop any heart
and your silence can be more frightening then a lions roar
and there are always choices even if they are the same.

i always come undone by our same.

The secret box


will always have the moon...
and not dare to wish upon falling stars since wishes bring messes
there is always more to clean...
there is always more bending
and always more stairs;
and again, the frost came-
(so, my garden needs tending and my heart a little mending)
and always the corners and boxes-
(speaking of boxes, what happened to your heart?)

same old box, just a different beat;
the echo, sounds strange in the places of purgatory.

The echo’s are troublesome.

i hold tight to the bat on the leg that kicks down the walls
holding back the chains of freedom

until

one day
      i,
beyond repair
and only a sigh
chiming in the wind as the proof of life
knowing
that sigh may warm the frost of your gardens,
so your petals may bloom again,
running red with redemption-
resting at last upon the hands that callous, the softest pillow.

converging

in the rain,
under the moonflowers
the
answer

dripped.

what was the question?

it started with an epiphany. i held in my hand a pencil and thought of....
the harbinger

autumnal heat
youthful patterning,
the abstract and absolute. this time
i am wild in the season of death,
as primitive cells wake from their slumber on a quest for fire.

Lethargic bees swim in the dregs of summers dresses,
disobedient to the wind.
Waiting for coffee and death and a fissure in the wall.
Night is better than toasted pound cake and peach preserves;
the last bit of summer that presents its presence.

present, those damp hands unwrapped Springs packages,
penetrating the fascia of earth in anticipation of her adornment.

Earth tasting of figs, with a hint of salt.

as if waiting for a spark, the late orchestra of summer plays a matinee',
the trees sound a blusterous applause releasing their adornments.
replayed in technicolor for the color blind.
"ooh oh my oh my" echos instead of waiting for depth

and suspension.

It passes faster than a minute in darkness,
flickering across the pages of time.
Where do we rove,together in silent ecstasy?

here.
the answer
encapsulated in a bead of sweat,
reflected in a tear.
traveling the bell jars curve.

The too Honest Resume Cover Letter

To Whom It May Concern,

Please consider me for [the listed position] as I am
[a sad realization] completely unprepared to (re)enter the civilized working world.

In my previous life I have been an academic,
and am fluent in Eros and amore.
 I was never very good at note taking
unless you trust
my memory.
A shipping chick, sewer of soldiers,
excellent at bundling cardboard, and compartmentalizer of demons,
ghost writer, slave and doppelganger,
junkie,
coat check girl and entomology assistant,
gardener
and
broke.

Now:
mother, wife, lover, cook, poet.
Collector of doilies, dishes and brick-brack,
a conscientious objector  to housework and order,
intellectual adulteress
and daydreamer.

One would assume, given my previous experience I would excel at multi-tasking;
sadly, it leaves me overwhelmed and uninspired.
The rewards of deconstructing the sounds of silence
while outrunning the past standing still,
motivate my chosen schedule.

I am certain, if hired I will one day disappoint you.
Once again I'll take my post as seeker for something so simple
as a "how" or a "why" while the last check clears
and i get lose change in return for my soul,

bedtime story, as told by Atticus (age 5)

Once upon a time there lived a woman named Grace, she wasn't just an ordinary woman she was a Momma. Her wonderful children were named Atticus and Circe.  They were wonderful, but did not always listen. Momma really wanted them to listen. She told Atticus and Circe to eat their food, but they didn't, she wanted them to pick up their toys but they didn't listen, she asked them to sleep in their own bedrooms, but they wouldn't.  She would ask over and over and over but they still didn't listen.  She never yelled or got mad, but her eyes would look sad.

One day Atticus and Circe were playing and a wonderful sound filled the room and a fairy appeared. Her name was Periwinkle. She was wearing a blue dress and had yellow and purple hair. She smiled and CAST A SPELL ON ATTICUS AND CIRCE! The spell was a special listening spell and all of the sudden they heard their Momma ask them to clean up their toys. ALL OF THE SUDDEN THEY WERE LISTENING. They ate their food, slept in their own beds and everyone was just as happy as can be.

A few days later the family was playing at a stream and doing the washing. Atticus and Circe were plinking rocks over a waterfall. Suddenly a Dragon and a Pirate appeared. Everyone was scared and thought the dragon was going to eat them, but it sneezed instead. Atticus was going to give the dragon a tissue but remembered the Pirate. Suddenly Periwinkle came back and sprinkled the Pirate with dust and it wasn't really a Pirate, but the Poppa free from the trolls spell. Everyone hugged and they all rode the dragon to the movie theatre.

The End.

*Transcribers Note- I give them a choice between an actual book or me telling the story. Tonight Atticus asked if he could be the storyteller. Circe insisted that if there was a fairy it had to be named Periwinkle and then interrupted when he spoke about the stream and said we had to be washing the clothes. 
I keep a notebook and a pen (gasp) on the table and for some reason decided to start writing down their sleepy sentences. These words are as Atticus said them, he thinks before going on so thankfully I was able to keep up.*

letter 1.

hello there, i'd like to say i missed you but that tense seems wonky, and would imply we were (possibly) sharing the same space/air/time; we are not, and things are amiss with missing.

i bought a carton of milk just to see if you were pictured on the side; (organic just like you) i gave the checker boy $4.49 in crumpled commerce and a bit of lint for good measure.

i only saw a cow with a Cheshire grin and remembered you were lactose intolerant.